I have had a love affair for years with SLR cameras, and now of course the DSLR. I remember just hearing the shutter capture an image, I was intoxicated. Everything I looked at, I just see an image to photograph. Photo shoots play out in my mind like a child daydreaming of the playground. I can stare off into space, all the while capturing shots in my head and dreaming of my studio. I would have my own studio with tons of backdrops and amazing speakers because you HAVE to be surrounded and wrapped in music while capturing the images…well I want to be anyways.
I dream of upgrading my equipment every day and have the opportunity to quit the day job and just follow my dream to become a professional photographer and editor. I try to produce work from time to time, and then second guess whether it’s worthy or not to publish or hang for public view. I mean what artist doesn’t fight internally about their worth? Or a Simon Cowell tells me my mother has been lying to me all these years and my photos suck! Ahhhhh!! The torture we put ourselves through.
The competition: the photographer down the street got the shot already; there is someone with your exact same name and is living in Colorado where you always dreamed to be; someone has a better lens and camera so why bother…these are just some of those hard hitting thoughts that bring me down. Then a revelation…”Who cares?” Well the revelation is really me therapist telling me to do my art no matter what. STOP PLEASING EVERYONE!
The critical photographer brain - everything needs to be perfect…
People say…”you don’t need an expensive camera and lens to take great pictures.” I call bullshit. I agree to an extend. It’s all about having the best tools to capture the best image in my opinion. A chef needs his knives, and not just any knife will do. A painter needs their special brushes, not the Crayola brand brush you find at Walmart in the school supply section. I mean - we can make it work if we have too, don’t get me wrong! So me not having all the tools I want or need causes me to pause and I hate that I am doing this. I need to get out there and take pictures and do what I love, and NOT to impress anyone…
The truth is simple: Do what makes you happy, no matter what anyone else tells you. And if you are the peanut gallery: be kind to people. Some art is not for everyone, but support artists for chasing their dreams. Lift people up. Be honest, but be kind doing it. If someone is not kind, they are typically just jealous in some way. I will try to continue to move forward in my life doing what I love no matter what anyone says. (Yeah right….)